Awe….I feel like it’s been so long since my last post! That’s because of school, work, and other responsibilities. Yeah, I started a weekend job now and I will be interning in the summer. Thanks god that I finally found an internship :). I had been so stressed ( and kinda depressed too ) for more than a year because I don’t know what I want to do with my life, the responsibilities I’m facing, and I don’t know if I will have the future that I want to have. I didn’t have a job, I didn’t do well in school, and my people seemed silent every time they asked me if I worked and I said NO. Well…I am still stressed but having a job and an internship really lower the amount of stress in my brain ( Sigh.. ). If you are reading this and feeling like you are in the same situation I was in ( I’m still in actually…, just not as bad as I had been ), just hanging there with me. We all have the worst day, month, or year in our lives. And there are many more to come. I’m not looking forward to it, but I know I can’t avoid it. No one’s life is good forever. I know they say the lightning never strikes the same place twice, but because we have to keep moving forward, we may end up in the spot where the lightning will strike. However, we should never stop moving. WHAT DOESN’T KILL US MAKE US STRONGER! And it’s okay to be weak! It’s okay to cry out! Just remember, after you finish crying, life goes on…
The picture below reminds me of the book I read many years ago when I was so into reading the “self-help” books. Obviously, I don’t remember the exact phrase, but it simply means that we might be in a cloudy day, but above that cloudy dark cloud, there is always a bright sky. And this picture was taken by my friend, Bryan ( Bryan, if one day you are reading this, I hope we will still be friend ).
And here’s what I mean by “It’s Contagious!”. For more than a year, I’ve been in the state where bad things kept coming one after another. I almost couldn’t handle it. But after I regained my balance, it seemed like good things started to make their way in. I heard back from companies I applied for, I got some interviews, and I got a few offerers. And I found a weekend job doing what I wanted to try doing. Life was looking good! But then a few weeks ago, I got annoyed by something, everything seems to followed the pattern. Again, I was stressed ( see, I told you! Bad and worst days are bound to happened. So are good and best days! ). I just started to feel better a few hours ago and hope I will have better weeks to come…and Summer…:).
Actually, there’s nothing contagious about that. I was being weak. I let the bad situation control me. In stead of trying to calmly find the solution, I allow a demon to lead the way. I know I can’t always be strong. But it’s okay as long as I keep looking for a way out and learn from it. And YOU too!